Thus far

So it has been quite some time since I blogged here last.  I am already on my second semester of master's degree in Ithaca College and I absolutely love it!  God has been so wonderful..it is just beyond words.  The work load is huge but the outcome is rewarding and satisfying (well.. for the most part).  I have an amazing teacher, who I can sense, is not going to leave me alone and really will push me.  I really need that since I am still trying to realize what I want to do in life career wise.  Sometimes I think I'd rather be somewhere else doing ministry work or working for a church or some organization but then I always go back in my thoughts to music and how much it means to me.  Perhaps I could do both?..So I still have some things to think about and figure out.  The only thing is certain right now is that I finally got back on track with God and even though the walk is not perfect yet (whose is?) I definitely feel his presence in my life and his diligent work in the midst of my piles and piles of inner"dirt" and unrighteousness.  I love His so much and I am thankful every minute of my life for everything He has done and for all His unimaginable mercy, grace, and love. 

My personal life has been a bit different compared to the years in Syracuse.  This independence has taught me a lot already, especially about myself and my character.  Ben and I are no longer together and that's final.  It was hard but I think everything is in the right place right now.  I just want to know God's further plan for my life and what I am suppose to do in order to get there "safely."  I want more than anything in this world to be faithful to Him and be willing to walk every single day by His Word. 

I had a very strange dream last night...  It was one of those where I only knew subconsciously what has been happening but my dream only showed the final outcome.   So I guess in my dream I was either e-mailing or calling Boban, trying to get in contact with him, and my dream started with a voicemail that he left on my cell phone. Basically, he sounded drunk or mad or all of the above, cursing me out and telling me to move on with my life and leave him alone. It was actually pretty hilarious, come to think of it, but in my dream I remember to be feeling quite the opposite.. It's funny I never had good dreams about him, even when we were dating and were happy.  This dream in particularly disturbed me quite a bit..

Oh so many things to do.  I am very much looking forward to graduating and moving to Ithaca for graduate school.  Right now I am trying to find a job, maybe I'll get lucky?